I'm a cat person. I've
always been a cat person. I will probably always be a cat person. But
back in 1998, we adopted a border collie/Lab mix puppy to protect our chickens. The Dr. Doolittle movie with Eddie Murphy had
just come out, and we named him Lucky, after the dog in the movie.
I was an at-home mom all
those years. Lucky was my constant companion. He was always with me.
Sometimes I would walk around the yard with a line of critters behind
me: Lucky, a cat, a chicken, and a bunny. Lucky was always the
leader.
We built fences at two
houses for Lucky, because we wanted him to be able to run freely. But
sometimes, he still found a way to get out. When he did, we'd walk
on the outside and call him to figure out how he got out. When we
moved to town, our neighbor told us he was getting out. It's a much
bigger deal, a roaming dog in town, because the pound will pick them
up. While Hubby went outside the fence to find the hole, I stood in
the kitchen to see where Lucky went. Hubby called Lucky, Lucky ran
for the hole, then looked back at the house where I was watching from
the kitchen window. I could almost hear him thinking, “Oh crap, I'm
busted!” He reluctantly walked to the hole in the fence, knowing
full well his escape route would be eliminated. He was a smart dog
and so sad.
When threatened by a
roaming Dalmatian, Lucky guarded me.
When our chickens were
threatened by a gopher, Lucky took it out, and laid it at the back
door for me to find.
Once, when we lived in
Hudson, I watched a skunk walk across our yard, as Lucky stayed
quietly back by the house. He was a smart dog.
Lucky loved ice and
wintergreen mints. If you had a drink with fresh ice, he would look
at you longingly until you gave him a cube. He loved mint so much, he
would come and smell your breath after brushing your teeth.
Lucky had heartworm
treatment in 2006, which was the primary reason we adopted Libby.
Because of what I saw him go through, and the fear that brought me, I
will never do that again. Never.
Lucky could clean off a
whole coffee table with his killer tail.
The daughter and I used to
pretend to girl fight, slapping at each other and squealing, and
Lucky would come get between us, barking and wagging his tail, and
enjoying the game.
Lucky loved catching any
bug that flew. Once he caught a cicada; when it buzzed he'd drop it,
then pick it back up when it got quiet. He got several baby birds
that fell out of their nests. If I could find them soon enough, all I
had to say was “Drop it” and he would. He didn't want to hurt the
birds, he just wanted to be with them.
Lucky had several
nicknames: Moosey Mutt when he wanted in a lap, the Woofer because
he'd woof 30 seconds after you let him out, and he spoke whale quite
fluently.
When I threw my back out
the first time, Lucky let me use him as a cane.
You could not kick a
soccer ball past Lucky; he always blocked them.
Lucky loved the beach. The
first time he went, he drank salt water, puked everywhere, and looked
at me like it was my fault. He didn't drink it again, but he sure did
love chasing seagulls.
Lucky could catch anything
and ate everything we tossed to him. He won a blue ribbon at a dog
fair for the “Dog that will eat anything.” He was the only dog
that ate the baby carrot. His daughter is the same way.
Lucky caught the squirrels
hubby shot out of our pecan tree in mid-air. Not a one ever hit the
ground.
He never moved when I told
him to stay, and got along with everybody and every animal he ever
met.
If Lucky was barking, and
I said, “Knock it off,” he would lay down and be as quiet as he
could be.
I didn't know.
I didn't know it could be
like this with a dog, that they really were man (and woman's) best
friend. He was always there, always comforting, he was truly the best
friend I ever had. I loved that dog like none I had ever loved
before. I didn't know it could be like that with a dog.
Honestly, I didn't know.
I just didn't know.
I didn't know you could
have that kind of relationship with a dog. It's completely different
from cats. I can't even begin to explain it, and I am a person who
lives with words and writes every single day. Lucky was everything
you could imagine you'd want in a dog; smart, funny, and
accommodating. He got along with chickens, ducks, cats, and even had
a bunny living in his yard at one time. He was far more than just a
pet.
He was great. I loved
that dog more than I thought was humanly possible to love a pet.
Lucky was a part of my
life for almost 14.5 years. He went to Rainbow Bridge on August 6,
2012. I am always going to miss him. There will never be another
Lucky Dawg in my life; and that breaks my heart.
We still have two dogs,
but they're not Lucky.
No dog will ever be Lucky.
So, time goes by.
Grief and I have been
companions for many years, so I'm familiar with its behavior. Time
doesn't heal a damn thing. Don't let anybody ever tell you time makes
grief easier. You just get more used to having it in your life; the
feelings of grief never go away. Obviously at 52 years of age, I'd
been through the loss of a pet before. Compared to some of the
deaths I've dealt with in life, like my son's, the death of a pet
doesn't even register.
But it still hurt, and
that surprised me. I'd see dogs with similar markings, or similar
personalities, and it would hurt that it wasn't Lucky. I missed him
SO bad.
I'm just not one of those
people who get a new pet after one dies; it takes me awhile to
assimilate loss. So after about a year, getting a new puppy began to
creep into my awareness. Yes, we had two dogs already, but they
weren't MY dog. You know what I mean? I'd rather adopt an older dog,
but our Libby is boss dog, 8 years old, and has seizures. I knew from
fostering other dogs, a puppy would be easier on her.
Ya'll know how Facebook
is; any time someone has puppies or kittens, they post it trying to
find them new homes. My particular set of friends are so incredibly
animal-conscious. In a way, it's the magnet that drew us all together
on Facebook. I keep stumbling over new friends that knew old friends,
and it turned out we ALL knew each other, and every one of us loves
animals.
So, I began to pay
attention to other dogs again. There are almost always new pics of
puppies on Facebook. Saw a little border collie mix that looked just
like Lucky, but by the time I inquired, that puppy had been adopted.
Lucky had only been 55-65 pounds; bigger than our surviving dogs, but
not super huge. Hubby and I joke about the current fad of little dogs
you can carry everywhere, and call them pretend dogs, so I even
looked at Yorkies and Maltese and dachsunds. But in my heart, I
really do love big dogs and missed my big dog hugs. I visited a lady
with nine great danes, and gosh I loved those dogs, but I'd never pay
for a pedigreed dog. I visited Pyrenees, and Danes, and collies and
shepherds and Labs and golden retrievers. I visited the kill shelter
here in Lufkin, as well as the dogs at the no-kill shelter.
I wasn't even actually
intentionally looking for a dog; I was just seeing what went by, you
know? The thought of a new dog just kind of floated through my mind,
whenever I'd meet a new dog. I was thinking all along that when God
wanted me to adopt another dog, the dog would present itself. It was
kind of like looking for a husband; I'd see some that appealed to me,
enjoy playing with them and loving on them, but they weren't MY dog.
I guess it's a really good thing my husband found me—lol!
So, there's this lady
(Pat) on Facebook. She and I share a mutual friend, but I didn't
actually know Pat. She posted a pic of her “Baptist puppies” and
our mutual friend shared it. Pat lives in Wells, and I thought, it's
no big deal to just have a look. Pat is a rescuer and had rescued a
full blooded female pit bull from a neighbor who kept it chained.
Her son owned a full-blooded Lab. While Mama was being boarded at a
vet, Mama was to be spayed. When Pat saw Mama and Daddy doing the
hokey pokey, she called the vet, and turns out: they didn't realize
they were supposed to spay Mama and so, there ya go.
Mama subsequently gave
birth to the eleven Baptist puppies. Yes, ELEVEN. Pat had found homes
for all but two of the puppies, both girls, which didn't matter to
use because we spay/neuter all of our critters as soon as they're old
enough. Daughter and I had made a road trip to deliver some goldfish
(long story), and decided to meet Pat in Wells on the way home.
Honestly, I was a little nervous about adopting a dog that was part
pit, after all those terrible stories we hear about them. But in my
personal opinion, it is the owner that makes a dog mean; dogs aren't
born that way. For some odd reason, I felt compelled to visit these
puppies. (And if you'll be patient, after my signature, I'll PS the
explanation of the “Baptist” puppies.)
So, my daughter and I went
out to visit the puppies on a Wednesday, when my hubby is home
sleeping off his night shift. Pat and I met at the school in Wells,
and she let this little black thing with practically no hair (a serious plus) out on the grass. The puppy
paid little attention to us. She was more interested in exploring the
grass and shrubs than us, but she wasn't resistant to being picked up
and cuddled. Daughter and I liked it, just because it was a puppy,
but I didn't get that---MAGNET---feeling. I didn't feel she was MY
dog.
Daughter and I weren't
going to adopt any puppy without Hubby meeting it as well, so the
next day, we ran back out to Wells and met Pat at her house to visit
the puppy again. Pat brought Mama in and she was so sweet, she was
immediately submissive and you could tell she was a rescued dog. She
would do anything to please the humans who helped her.
If you know me, you know I
sit on the floor a lot, particularly with my critters or my grandies.
Since I lost all the weight, it's just easier to sit on the floor
than squat; 328 pounds destroyed my knees and I can't do that
anymore. Gotta say though, it's a lot easier getting back up now. :-)
So, I sit down on Pat's
floor, and that little dang puppy runs to me, climbs in my lap, and
starts licking my face. Like her mom, her big old tail that is
longer than she is just a-wagging, along with most of her back half.
Yeah, ya'll know where
this goes from there, right? We took the dang puppy home and named
her Lucy, a name I'd had in my mind for a long time as sort of a
tribute to Lucky Dawg.
Just like us when Libby
and Lucky had their puppies, Pat made it clear: If it doesn't work
out with the puppy, bring it back. With our puppies, I even wrote up
tips for dealing with puppies—lol. But, there was no way Pat's
Baptist puppies were going to end up in a kill shelter. (Which,
sadly, was proven by one inhumane adopter later.)
If you've ever had a
puppy, you know, it is NOT easy, this growing a dog.
Lucy puddled everywhere,
despite our efforts to take her out all the time. After slipping in a
puppy puddle and popping something in my back, I was thinking, this
is just NOT a good idea, I'm just too old to deal with this anymore.
But we had this silly DUH moment, and realized if we left the back
door open a bit, she'd go out to puddle! We were all like—-well,
damn we're just stupid. She's already trained, she just couldn't get
out! So, now, we leave the back door cracked (even in 20 degree
weather), and we find very few puddles.
Lucy got her nickname
early; she is the PITA Psycho Puppy (and if you're older like me and
don't know what PITA stands for, it's “pain in the ass”). The
reason we call her that is that she just does the funniest things.
She loves wood, and picks up branches and brings them into the house
to chew on. One night, she was crying because I had the door cracked,
but it wasn't wide enough for her limb, and she wasn't big enough to
push the door open—lol!!
She loves squeaky toys and
as soon as she gets the squeaker out, she's done. Like our Libby
did, she dissects stuffies, so we find little piles of stuffing all
over the house. Between our backdoor and my room, which is where Lucy
lives, there is now a trail of stuffies, limbs, crunched wood, chewed
up pine cones, stuffie stuffing, and occasionally something odd she
found in the back yard. At the moment, our house looks like a stuffy
cemetery when you walk in.
Lucy is a complete and
total wuss. If the other dogs start barking at something, Lucy runs
and hides under my bed or in my lap. It's hilarious! When she's
outside, she runs under one of our sheds; there's a video of it on
Facebook if you really care enough to watch. She is rapidly
approaching a time when she's not gonna fit under my bed. Last night,
she was actually whimpering because she couldn't get under there;
she's so funny, she put her legs under the bed and hid the rest of
her under the covers. What a goober.....
She loves teasing the
older dogs into play and has rejuvenated both of our older dogs; they
can be dead asleep and she will coerce them into playing. The other
day, I found Libby and Lucy on the back porch just rolling while they
were embracing each other. Libby has NEVER allowed ANY dog to tower
over her, it is a pet peeve with her, but she's letting Lucy roll
over her, stand over her, tower over her. This is such an incredible
thing, because I found out a couple of weeks ago, Lucy's dad weighs
100 lbs. Lucy has huge paws, appears to be on the path to be a REALLY
big dog, and that big, she absolutely has to be able to get along
with Libby. If she's going to be that big, I have to ensure that she
won't hurt Libby, Girl, or any of our five cats, two of which are
over 10 years old. Currently, Lucy has come to terms with each cat
according to their personality; she just needs to remember that
Squeaky's gonna claw the shit out of her at some point. The rest of
the cats either ignore her or just give her kitty head butts.
Today, 1/28/14, Lucy is
exactly three months old. So far, she has learned how to sit, is mostly potty trained, learning to wait until a human says it's OK to
eat a treat, and not to walk on our plates when we are eating. (She
still sneaks in under the big dogs to eat out of their bowls---it's
hilarious!) She's learning from our other dogs that she is supposed
to stay at the gate (so we can leave it open when we're bring
groceries and stuff in), and she's not supposed to go past that
invisible line and leave the yard.
After getting caught
redhanded by Hubby sneaking under the fence, she's committed herself
to protection of the house and yard, doing regular patrols with
Libby, and not escaped again, but for the moment, we still keep the
gap under the gate blocked, just in case she decides to have a romp.
When she picks up
something she's not supposed to have, she hauls ass. I mean, there is
no way I'm catching that dog when she takes off. And the funny part
is, she is fully aware of what she's doing! She KNOWS she's picked up
something that is taboo; it is very much a game with her.
She's a puppy, and
sometimes, a TOTAL pain in the ass....
Then....
When she is tired she
comes up behind me, and rests her head on my shoulder for comfort.
When I discipline her and
say “bad dog”, she licks my nose.
When I fill up the dogs'
bowls in the morning, she eats out of each bowl progressively as I
fill them; such a goober.
I bought a crate for her
to sleep in at night, but when I am tired and cold, she curls her
body against mine, and I just can't bring myself put her in the
crate. She conforms herself to the shape of my body, and lets me use
her as a pillow to fall asleep. Unless you're an insomniac like me,
you have no idea what a gift this is.
After a night when she
sleeps with me, she hugs my head with her paws, and licks my face to
wake me up when she needs out.
Although she has a
submissive nature and doesn't like jumping on humans; she is
reluctantly learning how to give Big Dog hugs.
She loves our cat, Bones,
and lets Bones head butt her just like she does to the other dogs.
Bonesy just never met a stranger, feline or canine.
While I am in the midst of
my winter blues, wanting to barricade myself in the house, and not
wanting to come out till spring, she jumps up on the bed, bringing me
a mutilated stuffie, drops it in my lap, and waits expectantly for me
to throw it: over and over and over. “Bring it” is something
she's learning really well.
Lucky Dawg's collar still
hangs on my bed. Lucy licks it every day; it is SO weird.
When my heart is sad over
some awful news I've seen on TV or online, Lucy plops in my lap. It's
gonna be a real issue if she reaches 100 lbs. but it is the
sweetest and most comforting action anyone could offer.
Lucy does not judge me,
find me wanting, or love me any less because of any of my human
foibles.
So yeah, I'm a cat person.
But Lucky Dawg and his gifts continue to pour into my life. Because
before him, I just didn't know.
I just didn't know....
Love to all those who love me,
allison
P.S. The explanation for "Baptist puppies." Theres a old story about a little boy pulling a wagon of puppies saying free Baptist puppies ,the third day he started saying free pentcostal puppies a man said I thought they were Baptist puppies the little boy said they opened there eyes and saw the light. Pat's son used to tell that story little all the time so they became Baptist puppies,